Ryan Tenholder

Um

Hi.
It’s been really nice out, it the kind of weather that makes me put on some jeans and want to write. This is always my favorite time of the year, on the weekends there’s much to do which is always a good thing.

It seems as if the music is getting off the ground. Part Deux has been getting a lot of attention and my solo music has never sounded better, which I’m going to start on the album soon. I have all my material, and I’m fixing all the last minute song things, such as adding harmonies, backing vocal lines, extra guitar parts. It should sound really good. And I’m really excited how it will turn out.

I have a question.

If I could get some people together, would you listen to a podcast?

It would be pretty cool, even though I’m going to be on the Phatcast with Alex.

Part Deux has a show on Friday you should go to, it will be at the Boobie Trap in Topeka which is off of 6th and Washburn. Expect a good show.

Now that my microphone is fixed I can start recording some demos, and I’m experimenting with different recording styles. Stuff such as misplacing the mic, tuning guitars to an octave and fixing the amps to sound muffled, I’m just experimenting with stuff, and who knows if it pulls out any material then we might get an album. Stay tuned.

Any ways I have nothing else to say.

Goodbye.

-ryan.

Back again. (how embarassing).

Yo. Im back, again.

Haha, its been a while again. I can never seem to keep up on things.

Well my band played at the VooDoo Lounge, it was so fun and cool, if only there was a crowd there that got into music.

We were all over the stage and blew through our set with only two big mistakes…

1) All I Want To Know was played way too slow

2) Make Believe was played way too fast

Thats it. The crowd loved us, and because Rick couldn’t do the show the very last minute, our friend Alex “Aphat” stepped in very last minute, and rocked throught the set. He did really well, and he will play with us on 13 News, and on Saturday’s Battle of the Bands.

Anyways Ill walk you through the day of Sunday the 20th.

We got there and we set up. Then they miced the drum set. They reall tore that drum set apart, and I think Alex was upset about that. But while they did that we hung out “back stage” in the green rooms, which were bad ass, we got free unlimited water (bottled). The back stage was really cool, we had our own bathroom with a shower and etc. (We didn’t use it). Any ways we did our soundcheck, and then we ate, some big burgers. Ohh then we hung out back stage more, BACK STAGE SHENANIGENS!

When it was time to come on, we made a big walk on. I waved, for some reason…

We were all like WOW!

It’s hard to explain my excitement, and amazement of Sunday’s show. It was probably one of the biggest show’s ever.

Anyway’s we got a show coming up Saturday, playing the Battle of the Bands, you all reading this, if there are any of you, should come, and vote for Part Deux. That would be awesome!

I dont know, Im kinda getting bored of typing nonsense.

… :/

Well goodbye.

-Ryan

10:55

Im quitting Part Deux.

We have one more show, and possibly one after that. But thats it. We might play again we might now.

It saddens me very much, but its what had to be done.

Right now, my plans are to start writting more music, and start looking for a band.

Im just overwhelmed by emotions right now.

Sorrry for the bogus blog post’s lately.

Ill get right on that.

-Ryan :(

9/9/09

Hello all!

In an attempt to keep this updated, I am back once again for another day.

Today, my day started off with me awakening, feeling kinda odd. I had come down with a small fever and felt sick to my stomach. None-the-less, I still made it to school and made it through the day and I believe I have made a full recovery.

As I sit in my dad’s basement, all alone, I can hear the footsteps of my step mom as she prepares a midnight snack. Lately I have noticed that I am lonely. Not that I need a friend, I have just enough, I don’tneed a girlfriend, because I’m not that kind of lonely. Often times I find myself laying on my bed at my mom’s house with my guitar by my side and a cluster of papers on the floor. I then hear “Ryan we’re home!” Curious to see where they have been I make my way up to find my mom, brother, and sister have been gone on errands. Then I think, why didn’t I go. Then I realize that this has been happening for quiet sometime. I’m starting to get into arguments with my mom, I am always in my room working on music, and I rarely see my family. The same thing has been going on at my dad’s house. I feel bad, because I feel like I’m pushing them away. Or am I being pushed away? Am I depressed? I feel terrible sometimes because I won’t want to be with the family, and other times I’m not invited. I have a feeling this is a cycle every teenager encounters and I’m currently in that cycle. Either way I don’t know whats going on. Enough sad shit ok, lets get into something more up-beat.

Today I have started working on a new project which I will call “Stories From My Vacation”. About half of it is finished with the songs “Running Out” “It Came Out My Skull” and “The Girl With Magical Shoelaces” this project is reflecting The Beatles “Sgt. Peppers Lonely Hearts Club Band” and some expierenmental John Frusciante material.

I am also putting the finishing touches on the “As Days Go By” project which will be an EP or a short LP that I will start recording VERY soon.

Tomorrow Im hoping to go get my hair fixed, I’m often times a laid back, forgiving person, but I do think this lady messed up my hair and I really hope to get it fixed. Also having broken glasses has made driving a pain in the ass. So I’ll try to get those fixed.

Just a quick shout out to a friend Luis Millan who has a very interesting article written about him which you can find here. He’s a great guy, I stayed with him and his wife Mandi which is Ricks sister this summer. I had such a good time even though I was gay for Montana (meaning I really enjoyed it) the whole time I was there. And I remember waking up 3 hours before Rick (which is a down side to being a morning person) the first day we were there, so I sat there and listened to Luis play guitar for about an hour and a half, his work room was above the room I was staying in, which was a small room with a double sized bed. It was peaceful listening to the soft finger picking of classical guitar at 9 in the morning. And he didn’t even know I was listening.

I found some people I know on this “Tumblr” but I don’t know anyone else who uses this, which makes me feel like I’m writing in this blog for no reason. Im going to try to find more people, you know, “be more social”.

Speaking of social did you catch Obama’s speech tonight?

I guess I’m going to end this now, I’m guessing its pretty lengthy. Feels like I’m writing a fucking novel.

Oh well. Until tomorrow.

-Ryan.

Another day, another... day.

First of all, I’d like to say sorry for the belated blog post. I don’t have any lame excuses.

This past week has been pretty eventful.

On Friday I went to the Bleezer show. Weezer was awesome, Blink was alright. I really liked Taking Back Sunday and the Von Bondies, so I might start listening to those bands. It was a good day, although my car started to break down, and it’s still broken.

On Saturday I went and saw Halloween II, which was funny by the way, and then hit up the trap to see the Pudd’n Pops. They were excellent. I really admire those three, they’re music is great and they know how to put on a good show. I can’t wait till we play with them again in October. That was basically my Saturday.

On Sunday it was another eventful night, I hung out with Rick.

Monday, we had rehearsal out at Dan’s house. Rick couldn’t make it, but we still got ‘something’ done. Were pretty much good to go for this Friday’s show at the Boobie Trap, we play at 9. And it’s our first official show back together. After rehearsal I went home and enjoyed a nice evening with my family.

Now to more ‘blogging’ type stuff.

Currently in Kansas it’s raining and I love this weather. Every time it rains, I always go do something that involves being alone. And not in a bad way. Sometimes I go on walks or I sit outside by myself and soak in my surroundings. I’m not crazy, everyone likes their alone time, right?! Anyways, as I was sitting outside I started looking around the neighborhood. Things have changed. In my childhood I remember going to my friends Tyler and Cody’s house and hung out with them after school and on the weekends. We always were doing something. They eventually moved away in the 5th grade. There was also a number of other kids we used to do things with. But things were so different then, there was no limit to our imaginations and we used the woods to the west as an area we’d go on a day to day basis. Although we were trespassing, we never really knew that, we were carefree. Now day’s I’m the only one of the old crew left in the neighborhood, the neighbors across the street for many years moved away almost two years ago and two other families have cycled through that house in the past year. The neighbors to the South East moved and another family moved in. What was once an access way to Staffordshire is now a fenced off yard that family uses for nothing. Not that I ever used it… well ok once when I was late for the bus. But almost 7 years ago my neighborhood consisted of happy young families and A bunch of kids to divorced couples, Indian people, and old people. It wasn’t until recently I realized how much all the landmarks of my child hood have changed.

I can’t think of anything really to blog about. I got my haircut, which I have mixed feelings on.

Last thing I’ll leave you with is this.

Goodbye!

-Ryan.

9/1/09

Another ordinary day that consisted of me waking up late (which is ironically on time due to the fact, it’s always late). I have nothing much on my mind.

I think I might have swine flu.

Well, I do have something to talk about. I just got back from my father’s house (I had to pick up my brother) and just as I was about to leave my step mom said “You never hang around us” and my little brother said “Your always with Rick”.

…

What assholes. Im sorry I have to vent on this, but, I don’t like it they do that (which is about 75% of the time). It really hurts my feelings. Andrew, and Christi have no idea what it’s like to have a seperate family. I have two house’s to be at, and when its not one, its the other. It really hurts to have that said to you. They NEVER take into consideration. Yes, I do hang out with Rick, that’s because I don’t want to sit around for 5 hours watching you play video games, ANDREW. I go over there on Wednesday’s, and weekends. Which turn’s out to be half and half. The thing about those two is they never take in consideration for other people, at all.

I feel like I dont need to go any further.

I wasn’t feeling as tired today, but I feel sick to the point where my physical energy is lacking, yet again.

This is awkward.

So I’m going to attempt to write a musical. Don’t ask why.

It’s called Swine Flu: The Musical.

Im not feeling creative today.

So check back tomorrow for an eventful post.

I love you Santa!

-Ryan

8/31/09

Ok were going to jump in, I’m going to tell you the story’s I promised in this post.

LOST:
This past summer I set things to do, I didnt want to sit around the whole summer and watch TV and I sure as hell didn’t want to go to work all the time. So I did this for something to do over the summer: I read a selection of books, and watched LOST. I borrowed the 1st season from my friend Cody, and after the first episode I was hooked. Not only did I watch the first season in 3 days, I watched all the seasons (up to season 4) in 3 days. I was basically sitting infront of my tv, watching these episodes one by one for 8 hours each day, for about a week. After that it was done. Knowing that the past season (season 5) was somewhere online, I searched for it and finally found it in a collection of youtube clips. So I am just about up to date as everyone else is. I am extremely embarassed by this because the fact that I sat around for a week of my summer and watched LOST. :(

The other topic.

Dissatisfaction:
There’s a common occurance with me. I am never satisfied with my work. Or anything for that matter. I have songs that have been written for 2 years now that I still insist on changing. And with any homework, or school paper, I often find myself throwing away my current piece of paper and redoing all my work because of my dissatisfaction. It happens all the time. Infact, my last post I just changed before typing this. It’s a behavioral issue I have, and it’s not terribly bad, but I’m always finding things to revise. It could be spelling, the way I wrote my O’s and just about anything.

Well those topics are over with.

I haven’t been able to drive my car at all in the past few days. No, Im not grounded, infact, I haven’t been grounded since the 4th grade. I guess my parents think I’m a good kid or they think I have enough responsibility. But anyways, one of the belts came off my engine (I know very little about cars). So I’m pretty much stuck within the confinements of my neighborhood. Ive been trying to buy a bike for sometime. I like the idea of biking to destinations. Not only that but I also admire people who ride bikes. So if I had a bike right now, I might be doing something productive (not that this isn’t productive, Im exercising my writing skills).

I’ve been overwhelmed by extreme exhaustion all day. From 1st hour to 6th, I felt like I was going to pass out. I only got about 4 hours of sleep last night, and my energy suffers tremendously when my sleep has been deprived. That’s why you might be noticing that I’m not going into as much detail as I possibly can. I feel like I’m just throwing together sentences.

Other than the drought of sleep, I think today was alright. Decent. Average. I made Jazz One which (sorry guy’s) is more advanced than Jazz Too. I’m playing bass this year which is different, considering I played guitar last year, which makes this my first year playing bass. I often times find myself lost in the music, because between the three, Joel, Dan, and Joe, I cant understand what they’re suggesting. They suggest little things to help me, but I honestly dont know what they’re saying when Im just trying to play it how it’s written. I am very scared about being in Jazz one, and I’ll just try to stick in there.

You know how people say they dont like Mondays?
Well I dont like Sundays. It’s the fact knowing tomorrows a monday rather than expierencing the monday. Let me explain in a dialogue type of way. “Oh todays sunday? well that means tomorrows monday, I dont want to go to school tommorrow.” whereas this is me on a monday “this is just like any other day of the week.”. I hope that makes sense. It doesn’t to me.

I honestly can’t think of anything else to cover, or talk about. This makes my quota for a blog, I guess.

Goodbye, Ill see you tomorrow.
-Ryan

Oh also just so you know, the previous blog post’s don’t show the year, so anything after the blog titled “Coming Back” is really old.

Coming back.

My blog is coming back. No biggie.

I’m really nervous at this point, because I don’t know what to say. It’s like being with a friend you haven’t talked to since the second grade.

Why bring it back you ask?

Because recent events in my life have inspired me to bring it back (events can mean anything at this point). Im in my junior year of high school, and man have things changed. Last time I posted was almost a year ago, and after coming to understanding of that, I realized how much things have changed. My opinion’s on a lot of things such as politics, school, music, and life have changed. For instance: Last year at the beginng of the second semester, I saw school as a requierment and a thing I had to do everyday, and now at the third week of my junior year I view school as a place to learn, not a place to be with friends. What I’m trying to say for the people hard at following is that I have come to appreciate the educational system a lot more than I did 6 months ago. That being said, my grades are doing better, and I feel the need to learn something each day, rather than have a day for rest. I try to read almost each day but I never get to it.

Sometime in the last paragraph, I said my opinion on life has changed. I used to not care. At all. But the requierment to have more responsibility has opened my eyes. I’m eating healthy, I’m trying to be with my family more (even though it is hard when Im at the state of life where my friends want to do something all the time), I have a car now, and a job which makes me have to be smart about how I spend money, I have to manage my time wisely, and Im trying to branch out more.

I feel I have missed alot, but you get the point (I hope).

Im going to the gym everyday (I’ll try, if its a friday night and were having band practice I’ll most likely will not get to it). I can usually get there 5 or 6 times out of a 7 day week. I go everyday at the same time, 9 p.m. which makes me see alot of the same people. Most the people are very friendly, and always have a friendly smile on thier face. But theres this one man, who has muscles the size of 3 baseball bats, he walks around the gym REEEAALL slow, and always has a the biggest frown on his face. He scares me, and everytime I’m at the gym I try to avoid consultation with him.

I don’t want to update on everything in my life because if I did, then I would have nothing else to blog about. So you’ll get bits and pieces every once in a while. Just like the back stories in LOST. But, I will update about the relationship between LOST and I in the next post.

I try to correct myself sometimes but I have little slip ups,  I am VERY picky on how things are spelled out and said. For instance: I really like to dance. Where as my correction would be: I really enjoy dancing. Or I might say alot when it’s really spelled a lot. I have slip ups and sometimes misspell words, so if you notice anything either I am being lazy or I didn’t notice it.

I honestly have so much more to blog about but I feel I lost you after the 4th sentance. I honestly dont think this blog is the best I could of brought out, after reading it twice I am extremely dissatified with it. That’s another story I will hit up in my next post as well.

Today I am at my father’s house. I don’t think there is much to look forward for today, but if anything eventful happens I will let you know.

I guess this is it. Ill be back tomorrow.

-Ryan

Album is GOLD! and show on Saturday!!

Ok well I finally finished making the Album “Glass of Orange Juice” its really great theres 17 tracks on it and it clocks in around 1 hour and 15 minutes I think people who generally like Alternative, Punk, Folk, or Rock N’ Roll will enjoy this album here is a track listing

Tracks:

1. Where is My Mind?
2. Dream of Green
3. Cafe
4. Everyday
5. Complications
6. Hold
7. Blind (Yes We Can)
8. Prisoner of My Own War
9. Blind Date with Philadelphia (For Eddy and Pantea)
10. Dreaming Isnt Fun
11. Untitled #1
12. Supertramp
13. I Dont Mind
14. Glass of Orange Juice

Bonus Tracks:
15. The Separation of Space (Demo)
16. Everyday (live)
17. The Separation of Space (live)

Its an amazing CD and it cost 3 dollars at my show or 4 dollars if you order one. You can order one by emailing me at TenholderMusic@gmail.com . Another note of news is that I am playing a show at Lazios Coffee and Bar place. It is on 21st and Belle in Topeka, KS (near branded) and its going to be an awsome night! So come out and enjoy some awsome coffee! And now… we wait.